I am going to be a partner in a new studio opening in downtown Rockford. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m hoping this is the right thing to do, sometimes I feel sick and I have told so many people that somedays I wake up dry heaving. This is a step I’ve thought about and dreamed about but didn’t know exactly when, where or how. I worry about time & money, hoping there will be enough of both. I wonder if my kids are really at the right ages to make this transition. My son is an amazing drummer but my home office lost its charm the minute his drum set moved in. I love my job & I love my family. I always dreamed of being a stay at home mom. I never dreamed I would have something outside of my family that I would be so passionate about. I’m thankful for all of this…for the roller coaster of emotions, the excitement of a new path, for a family that wants me at home because they love me, but they freely & joyfully permit me to pursue my dreams. I’m thankful for change and for the joy it will bring. Someone said to me…”It must feel like Christmas?!” to which I responded….”No. It feels more like I’m expecting.” I know this feeling. Life as I know it is about to change. I can live in fear of the change or just embrace it & look forward to it. I’ve worked with my partner Mandy for the last few months getting the studio ready, we’ve cleaned, patched & painted. We’ve shopped and decorated, and have taken a lot of deep breaths. We’ve been nesting. Months of getting it ready and do you think I’ve taken a single photo in the studio? NOTHING….until last week. I had gone back and forth on what the first thing I would shoot there would be and it just didn’t happen but then I asked a friend to bring her “expectant self” over to make sure that I can actually work here….and I can. Thank you Melanie for sharing your beautiful belly and the sweet anticipation of what’s to come.
by Terri
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